this is so new

Wow July 4th 2013...  Where has the time gone?  and no that isn't for one to answer just a question thrown out there for you to think!

Oh I'm sitting at home all by my lonesome having cheap vodka and about to take a hot bath.  Yay...

Oh I have been listening to some music and about to make something to eat.....

Ok Ok... seriously this blogging stuff is so new and wierd that I am not sure if I can do it or not.  I'm just following my friends Tonya Hester's advice because she felt it would ROCK...lol

Ahhhh I know what the deal is now.  I'm EXHAUSTED because I was up till 5 am this morning talking to an ex of mine who was Super Incredible drunk.  He went from being upset to crying.

I can at least say that he had my heart in his hands during the conversation.  And this is why.....!

You see I've always been told that Alchohol is "the truth serum".  I believe it too!  I honestly do!

He was really hurt deep inside!  He wanted to make peace to everyone he has ever done wrong to or been mean to.  I wish people were more like that sober than drunk.  At this age I'll take what I can.  So he and I have had our issues but I know deep inside he is a good guy.

I'm no angel nor do I advertise that I'm an angel but I know I'm not a mean person.  A friend once told me that I should never be mean because it's not who I am.  I hold those words close to my heart.  Why?  Because I don't get how a person can be mean!  I don't!  What does a person get out of being mean?  Are you that much more powerful?  Does it put you on a pedestal?  I don't get it.  Everytime I try to be mean it's like I hurt myself.  I don't understand it... nor do I want to!

Ok so I know I'm all over the place .... and ya know what... THAT IS OK ...because this is my blog.

take that!!  Although I need a friend like Tony to proofread this... lol   (he's evil when it comes to writing good english)

Gosh I have so much going through my mind right now I'm gonna take a step back and take a breather..... yes you read that right... it's exhausting having ADD or whatever they say is wrong with me.  Oh well.. I think I'm perfectly fine.

Muahzx